hello people
finally a heartfelt and emotional post :(
so yupps. went for ndp cheer!
guess who i sawww!!
weeee so happy. that like totally lift my mood up to like 100000%%
hehehehhe ^^
so yupps/ me and huishan quite lost.
cos we din really attend the previous training.
but yeah manageable i guess.
n quite stress. cos ac and aj will be on the raised platform.
so if anyone screws up, the whole nation sorta can see.
but not that kua zhang ba :)
so yupps.
went for ac cheer after that.
like around 7
had maggiee with charis & jane :DD
the whole cheer grp was waiting for us to start gyming!
so sweeeeet!! :DDDD
in my head i was like.
ok gyming. that sounds cool.
and physically strenuous (since i haven been hitting the gym for 0.5 yr)
but shld be manageable.
so what gym was actually not running on treadmill or doing pull up or doing machines
but we did some though like the lifting weights one.
BUT STRETCCHIIINGG!!!
ya so basically stretching was like:
1. i kneel, fifi stood behind, i hold his legs, and shane took one of my legs and stretch it to the ear.
2. lie down and stretch to the ear vertically
3. lie down sideways and stretch to the ear.
but obviously I CANT DO ANY
inside me i feel like screaming and was like ommgg stop stop please stop
i was like shit! wad was i thinking when i wanted to join cheer.
all throughout the first set my mind was screaming like "JIAHUI WHAT THE HELL WERE U THINKING, to think that u can do this on ur own?!?"
all throughout i felt like giving up, i was mentally and physically weak. my leg couldnt go more than 90 degrees. while the other girls were like reaching 180 :(((
i am the weakest link and the team was no stronger than their weakest link.
so in a way. i was preventing our team from excellence.
i could tell that shane din wanted me to be a flyer. cos i was freaking inflexible.
however fifi was nice and din give up on my lack of strechy, rubber bandy like muscles
and ask me to try my best.
however. i knew i was far from being anything.
i screamed and screamed. i wanted to cry so badly. but no tears were flowing.
i never had been in such agony. the stretch was excruciating.
fortunately!
the team was v supportive. fifi and shane keep encouraging me on.
even though i let them down.
but what makes me felt better
was that nessa jane charis and everyone else was there and was like gO JIAHUI U CAN DO IT
that made me felt alot better man.
(hahaa. nessa was v nice. and i accidentally punch her stomach
cos i was in such pain.
like worse than giving birth. ok im exaggerating. BUT YEAH! :) love herr!!
and i keep on grabbing pple. i dunno who i grabbed. like every ankle wrist and nessa's stomach. hahaha xP sorry guys :))
cos in the beginning. i wasnt really close to anyone in the team except for cuixia, ellie
and huishan
and din really dare talk to anyone like express my trueself.
cos i wasnt really like those who will like talk abt my personal stuff to anyone who i just know.
so yeah. i wasnt close to anyone. or i tot so.
but the team was very nice & encouraging abt my inflexibility.
they werent like "she cant even do simple things, why does she even want to join"
which was exactly what i felt like throughout the gym.
i was v afraid of what others think abt me.
yes. but nevertheless everyone was v nice abt it.
so ya. basically, i sorta lost my ability to walk. and whine abit to cuixia about it.
cuixia is like always so nice about it.
shes like the nicest bff ever!
cos its like
everytime i bully her. and give her evil eye.
omgg i feel damn guilty. but shes damn nice abt it.
never complained once, always there for me.
always wait for me to pack up and leave classroom tgt.
always wait for me.
always help me collect hmwk wen i din come sch
always v nice abt everything
yeah and the list goes on and on :D
but things aside,
even though i felt like a total loser,
everyone made me feel better. and i more motivated to do better the next time.
cos ive like v little trust in myself.
like i give up v easily. and keep flooding myself with -ve thoughts.
ya but i hope that through this experience ill grow stronger mentally and physically.
n hopefully try to open up more to the team.
cos its like i dont dare like to act my usual crazy self.
cos im afraid that pple might think im wired wrongly or just faking it.
so yeah.
im actually quite shy. reaaally.
soyupps. i know im quite u know. spilling out my feelings in this post.
but if i dont typed, i feel like its gonna burst.
like must tell some1 u know that kinda thing.
yupps. but its only once. hheheh :)
finally a heartfelt and emotional post :(
so yupps. went for ndp cheer!
guess who i sawww!!
weeee so happy. that like totally lift my mood up to like 100000%%
hehehehhe ^^
so yupps/ me and huishan quite lost.
cos we din really attend the previous training.
but yeah manageable i guess.
n quite stress. cos ac and aj will be on the raised platform.
so if anyone screws up, the whole nation sorta can see.
but not that kua zhang ba :)
so yupps.
went for ac cheer after that.
like around 7
had maggiee with charis & jane :DD
the whole cheer grp was waiting for us to start gyming!
so sweeeeet!! :DDDD
in my head i was like.
ok gyming. that sounds cool.
and physically strenuous (since i haven been hitting the gym for 0.5 yr)
but shld be manageable.
so what gym was actually not running on treadmill or doing pull up or doing machines
but we did some though like the lifting weights one.
BUT STRETCCHIIINGG!!!
ya so basically stretching was like:
1. i kneel, fifi stood behind, i hold his legs, and shane took one of my legs and stretch it to the ear.
2. lie down and stretch to the ear vertically
3. lie down sideways and stretch to the ear.
but obviously I CANT DO ANY
inside me i feel like screaming and was like ommgg stop stop please stop
i was like shit! wad was i thinking when i wanted to join cheer.
all throughout the first set my mind was screaming like "JIAHUI WHAT THE HELL WERE U THINKING, to think that u can do this on ur own?!?"
all throughout i felt like giving up, i was mentally and physically weak. my leg couldnt go more than 90 degrees. while the other girls were like reaching 180 :(((
i am the weakest link and the team was no stronger than their weakest link.
so in a way. i was preventing our team from excellence.
i could tell that shane din wanted me to be a flyer. cos i was freaking inflexible.
however fifi was nice and din give up on my lack of strechy, rubber bandy like muscles
and ask me to try my best.
however. i knew i was far from being anything.
i screamed and screamed. i wanted to cry so badly. but no tears were flowing.
i never had been in such agony. the stretch was excruciating.
fortunately!
the team was v supportive. fifi and shane keep encouraging me on.
even though i let them down.
but what makes me felt better
was that nessa jane charis and everyone else was there and was like gO JIAHUI U CAN DO IT
that made me felt alot better man.
(hahaa. nessa was v nice. and i accidentally punch her stomach
cos i was in such pain.
like worse than giving birth. ok im exaggerating. BUT YEAH! :) love herr!!
and i keep on grabbing pple. i dunno who i grabbed. like every ankle wrist and nessa's stomach. hahaha xP sorry guys :))
cos in the beginning. i wasnt really close to anyone in the team except for cuixia, ellie
and huishan
and din really dare talk to anyone like express my trueself.
cos i wasnt really like those who will like talk abt my personal stuff to anyone who i just know.
so yeah. i wasnt close to anyone. or i tot so.
but the team was very nice & encouraging abt my inflexibility.
they werent like "she cant even do simple things, why does she even want to join"
which was exactly what i felt like throughout the gym.
i was v afraid of what others think abt me.
yes. but nevertheless everyone was v nice abt it.
so ya. basically, i sorta lost my ability to walk. and whine abit to cuixia about it.
cuixia is like always so nice about it.
shes like the nicest bff ever!
cos its like
everytime i bully her. and give her evil eye.
omgg i feel damn guilty. but shes damn nice abt it.
never complained once, always there for me.
always wait for me to pack up and leave classroom tgt.
always wait for me.
always help me collect hmwk wen i din come sch
always v nice abt everything
yeah and the list goes on and on :D
but things aside,
even though i felt like a total loser,
everyone made me feel better. and i more motivated to do better the next time.
cos ive like v little trust in myself.
like i give up v easily. and keep flooding myself with -ve thoughts.
ya but i hope that through this experience ill grow stronger mentally and physically.
n hopefully try to open up more to the team.
cos its like i dont dare like to act my usual crazy self.
cos im afraid that pple might think im wired wrongly or just faking it.
so yeah.
im actually quite shy. reaaally.
soyupps. i know im quite u know. spilling out my feelings in this post.
but if i dont typed, i feel like its gonna burst.
like must tell some1 u know that kinda thing.
yupps. but its only once. hheheh :)
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